連續兩個晚上澆水，昨天下午想說讓她在廚房的小窗台那曬個太陽好了，沒想到出門後外頭開始颳風又下雨的，而且回家後我還把她給忘記了。

一直到晚上才想到，啊！我的向日葵！哎呀~ 這下真是欲哭無淚了。

幸好小窗台那有個遮雨的板子，看起來，她也只是....溼透了.....。

把她放回室內後，還真不知該不該再澆水。

被這個雨搞了一下，我想她是兇多吉少了吧。

今天早上去看了她一下，咦，她長出來了耶，阿阿阿，真是神奇阿，而且是腰桿子先冒出來，哈哈，這也太好笑了吧，又不是鴕鳥。

可是這麼一來我又開始擔心她會不會頭部埋在土裡窒息而死了。

加油呀！向日葵！妳要好好長大！

故事是演繹一個從小就生活在船上且從未踏過陸地的天才鋼琴師的一生。我很喜歡柯恩號(鋼琴師的摯友)一開始不適應海上生活吐的東倒西歪時，一九零零說可以治療他暈船的那個橋段。一九零零筆直的走在搖搖晃晃的船板上，他坐到彈鋼琴的椅子上一邊彈著琴並要柯恩號把鋼琴的固定栓拔掉，然後他們兩人便坐在椅子上和鋼琴一起隨浪偏偏起舞，像是跳著華爾滋那樣。雖然最後鋼琴將一大片的玻璃門窗給撞壞了，而且他們還被船長處罰要添很多天的煤炭，感覺還是很過癮。

§◎ 我們總是說海洋看不見盡頭，一九零零卻說，他看不見陸地的盡頭。 ◎§ 

作者安德魯‧克萊門斯Andrew Clements寫了許多書，其中校園系列因為將小孩子的校園生活寫得生動有趣又富有教育意義而廣受歡迎。

不要講話光是推薦及導讀就佔了33頁。

故事是由一個愛講話的男孩看了有關甘地的書，開始試著一兩天不說話而發生的一連串趣事。

試著想想，在學校中、在課堂上當遇到需要說話卻要刻意不說話的場合時，究竟會怎麽樣呢？

故事就這麽開始了。

因為不說話，所以他開始學著傾聽，同時受不了某個臭女生的聒噪，他和她打賭她沒辦法整天不說話。然而最後竟演變成五年級男生與女生的對抗大賽，兩天之內講最少話的就是贏家。

老師對於平常吵翻天的學生們突然間安靜下來也有不同的反應，學生們說話用字開始會經過大腦，但卻用的十分小心(小氣?)，太過斟酌字句的學生，在教學上會帶給老師怎麼樣的困擾呢？敵對的男生女生對抗大賽又會怎麼收尾呢？

整本書易讀且十分輕快。是一本大人小孩都適合看的書。

§◎ 當你沒什麼要說的時候，你有權保持沉默。 ◎§

I'm searching for the world that I come from

'Cause I've been looking around

In the lost and found of my heart....

No one understands me

They view it as such strange eccentricities....

'Cause I keep kidding around

Like a child, but pardon me....

People say I'm not okay

'Cause I love such elementary things....

It's been my fate to compensate,

for the Childhood I've never known....

Have you seen my Childhood?

I'm searching for that wonder in my youth

Like pirates and advanturous dreams,

Of the conquest and kings on the throne....

Before you judge me, try hard to love me,

Look within your heart and ask,

Have you seen my Childhood?

People say I'm strange that way

'Cause I love such elementary things,

It's been my fate to compensate,

For the Childhood I've never known....

Have you seen my Childhood?

I'm searching for that wonder in my youth

Like fantastical stories to share

The dream I would dare, watch me fly....

Before you judge me, try hard to love me,

The painful youth I've had

Have you seen my Childhood....

有時外婆去完菜市場經過我們家會進來坐坐

有時純粹只是叫外公回家吃飯

印象中外婆煮的一手好菜比辦桌的還好吃

我最忘不了的是她那絕妙口感的滷豬腳

有次我夢見外婆跟我說了她的日文名字(她小學是受日本教育的)

隔天我興致沖沖的跟外婆說我夢見了什麼

她笑得很開心

大概是想到了小時候的事

雖然她的日文名字根本就不是我夢到的那樣

舅舅在幾年前將外公外婆接去台北照顧

隨著時間的流逝

外婆身體也漸漸的不好了

在似乎可以預期卻又無法預期的突然之中

她也走到了生命的盡頭

2009.05.04  外婆逝世.享年八十.

那原本很低調的紫藍色頭髮，已經褪色變成了醒目的紫紅色了。

這次的顏色是Stary night，非常非常深的藍色，簡稱黑色。

好吧，其實就是黑色，囧，其實我是想染深葡萄紅啦，那是我最喜歡的髮色。

不過就暫時乖一下吧。

他幫我喬了一喬之後，那肌腱總算是回到該回去的位置，舅舅開的貼布跟藥膏也很有效，原本連開個瓶蓋都不行的，現在勉強可以轉開了。

只是有時候還是會偷懶沒擦藥或是忘記貼貼布，然後笨蛋中指就像是上了板機一樣的又卡了回去。

噯，還真是一丁點都偷懶不得的呀。囧。

IGA 是這個小鎮裡唯一的一個超級市場，也是我每天非去不可的地方，就像是每天都要打開冰箱看一看裡面有什麼東西可以用那樣。另外，則是因為他。

那時候，他總是坐在駕駛座，我總是坐在副駕駛座。他會帶著那個像是刈包的白色小喇叭和他黑色的Ipod，在還沒把它們乖乖的放在駕駛座與副駕駛座中間前，他會在最常聽的英文歌單中選一首歌。那一首歌，算是他當下想傳達的心情吧。

每一天，我都會很注意的聽他選的那一首歌，然後小聲的學著哼哼唱唱。那是我們交談的一種方式。

他喜歡快節奏的音樂。在快節奏中，我們一起聆聽那些人生百態，又或是貼近於內心深處的感觸。

到了IGA，很快買完東西後，我們會一起等其他人上車。通常他會做一些伸展運動。我大部份的時間都是聽他的音樂發呆。那大概是一整天最放鬆的時候了吧。

他最後一次的IGA我並沒有搭到。而我最後一次跟他一起去的IGA，上車回家前他是這麼說的，Variety is the spice of life。

他走了，six o'clock IGA 開始轉變，不再是six o'clock，那個駕駛座上的人也不再是他了。

但是我依然想念之前six o'clock IGA 的每一個時光。

I dropped my watch behind the tire

Threw my alarm clock inside the fireplace

yeah, and I put the parental control on

On the news and the weather channel

I'm outside in my robe, I'm looking for you, oh

If everything'd stop, I'd listen for your heart to lead me right to you, yeah

I tried every way I can

But it's harder to hold on to your hands than the hands of time

I need a hand, girl, I'm trying to hold on

Losing strength in these hands of mine, I need you here

I'm trying to hold on, standing here open hands in air

No, I can't do this alone

Hold on, oh,  hold on, baby hold on (to my hands)

Hold on to my hands (Don't let go of my hands)

Don't let go

I don't think this is working

Sqeezing so hard, my hands are hurting

Ought to let go in the first place

And I put the phone on the front lawn

Everything that shows time is gone

I'm outside in this cold still looking for you

If everything'd stop I'd listen for your heart

To lead me right to you, yeah

I tried everyway I can

But it's harder to hold on to your hands than the hands of time

I need a hand, girl

I'm trying to hold on

Loosing strengh in these hands of mine, I need you here

I'm trying to hold on, standing here open hands and I know I can't do this alone

Hold on, oh, hold on, let me hold on (to my hands)

Hold on to my hands (Don't let go of my hands)

Don't even let me go (Don't let go of my hands)

If everything'd stop, I'd listen for your heart

To lead me right to you

I tried everyway I can

But it's harder to hold on to your hands than the hands of time

I need a hand, girl, I'm trying to hold on

Losing strengh in these hands of mine, I need you here

I'm trying to hold on

Standing here open hands and I know I can't do this alone

Hold on, hold on

Let me hold on (to my hands)

Can you hold on to my hands (Don't let go of my hands)

Don't let go

Can you hold on to my hands

Every little past frustration

Take all your so called problems

Better put them in qoatations

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

SAy what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Walkin' like a one man army

Fightin' with the shadows in your head

Livin' up the same old moment

Knowin' you'd be better off instead

If you could only

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Have no fear for givin' in

Have no fear givin' over

You better know that in the end

It's better to say too much

Than to never to say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shakin'

And your faith is broken

Even as the eye are closin'

Do it with a heart wide open

A wide heart

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say  

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

They are not good for me,

I know.

But I love them.

我看著她，心裡有些感動。

這是她第一次主動擁抱。

之前曾有好幾次，我太過親暱的舉動，嚇著了她。

「Don't!」她會這樣說，然後用右手打一下左手背，做出她最嚴厲的警告。

那一天，天有點冷，也是上次待在澳洲的最後一天。她等我出去玩回來一起去吃晚餐等的很晚。告別的時候，她給了一個擁抱，她的體溫涼涼的，我的心卻暖暖的。

「不要哭喔。」金離開後，艾薇這麼說。

「我才沒有。」我這麼說，卻在語畢的時候鼻酸了起來。

之後有好長的一段路，我沉默著，只有如此，才能掩飾著心底某種即將爆漿的情緒。

Have you ever had someone who loved you

Never leave your side

I know you'll be there

Because you love me....yes you do

I'll give all my life and all my love... if you...

Promise me you'll be here forever

I'll give you me I'll give you everything

If you'll promise me you'll never leave me

What my friends say don't matter

You'll be right here from the start

And I'll get on my knees

I'll give you all of me

You'll never leave my side

Because you love me

You complete me

You hold my heart in your hands

And it's okay cause I trust that

You'll be the best man that you can

Baby you love me... oh yes you do... yea

And no matter what they ever say about you

I'm gonna stay by your side

Promise me no matter what they say about me

That...you're gon' be here till the end of time

Cause you held me down when no body was around

And gave me all the love I need

So give me more don't you ever leave

Cause you complete me

I konw...you love me

You complete me

You hold my heart in your hands

And it's okay cause I trust that

You'll be the best man that you can

Cause you...give me my heart back

Give me my love back baby

I want it all

Because it's never enough

Give me my heart

Give me my love back

I want it all

Because it's never enough

You love me

You complete me

You hold my heart in your hands

 And it's okay cause I trust that

You'll be the best man that you can

You love me

You complete me

You hold my heart in your hands

And it's okay cause I trust that

You'll be the best man that you can

And it's okay...

I know you do you...I know you do

Yes you do... I need you too...

yeaahh... I love you baby (oh~)

I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light

I can't remember how

I can't remeber why am I in here tonight

And I can't stand the pain

And I can't make it go away

No, I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes

Go nowhere to run

The night goes wrong as I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

Everyone's screaming

I try to make a sound but no one can hears me

I'm slipping off the edge

I'm hanging by a thread

I want to start this over again

So I try to hold on to a time when nothing mattered

And I can't explain what happened

And I can't erase the things that I've done

No, I can't

How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes

Got nowhere to run

The night goes on as I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happento me

I've made my mistake

Go nowhere to run

The night goes on as I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

而我，也只能有些艱難的表明我對這些事的看法與立場。

那並不是一件簡單的事。

不過，有時還真的是那樣──順應自己的感情行事，對人類而言是最正確的道路。

人生、友情、愛情。

又或者是其他種種。

那些東西在我的生命裡總是沒有固定的形狀，一下子是這樣，一下子又是那樣。

當我試著伸出手想要去碰觸時，心裡常常感到許多不安。

我不知道。

至今，我仍不懂，什麼才叫愛，什麼才叫友情，又或者，什麼才是人生。

天空很藍，心情卻在很黑的地方。

我渴望簡單的歡笑與溫暖，這些似乎應該是要很簡單的。

然而，眼前所及的，耳裡所聽到的，我所能碰觸到的，那一些畫面，那一些聲音，再再都困惑著我。

就像是從一個泥濘裡走到了另一個泥濘。

有什麼差別呢？

或許在內心深處，我渴望的是那難得卻又短暫的乾淨清爽吧。

這種時候總是好想看海。

好想走一趟淡水老街。好想聽聽潮汐的聲音，空氣中海邊的鹹魚味。

如果那些我們所擁有的都能像自己想像的輕易捏造就好了。

那麽是不是一切就能夠變得跟想像中一樣的簡單。